a girl who knew how to be happy even when sad (sgmajorshipper) wrote,
a girl who knew how to be happy even when sad

all good things

First of all, thank you everyone for the condolences. I can't get back to every single one of you, but I do appreciate it. I told my dad that a bunch of my friends had offered their condolences and he was like "how many?" and I was all "oh, like, twenty something..." and he just looked at me. And I looked back. It was a moment. Anyways. Honestly, it meant a lot. And really, 90% of what's been going through my head is relief after I got over the initial wave of feels. Because in the end there, it was really bad for her. Not gonna get scary detailed, but when half your torso is covered in open wounds, there isn't enough pain medicine in the world to make it comfortable.

But, I don't feel like...I was close to mom. Closer than pretty much anyone else in my life ever. But at the same time I'm not going through the same things everyone always associates with grief. It's probably because we got most of our grieving in when she was still alive, but I'm just trying to get back to "normal" and do what I always said I wanted to do and all the things we talked about me getting to do.

To that end. (Hey, segue!) This is my last post in this account. I'm officially switching over to afastmachine. I've been commenting under that one in most places, and my graphics comm has been moved over. I still have to move over my watching/member lists, and the people I want to friend who haven't yet friended me, but I'm trying to get back into the groove of things so that'll be part of it. So last call, as it were. If you want to keep up with me, head on over there. You might get friend notifs from that account, and that'll be me. I'll be changing my sticky to reflect my movement, too. My profile already has been moved and cleared out. I still have my log-in for this account, I'm not abandoning it by far, and you can still get ahold of me my commenting/messaging this one, but you'll be seeing afastmachine around instead of sgmajorshipper. So I'll see you on the flip side. :)

ETA: I have friended everyone I had listed as my friend, I believe. If I missed you, poke me or add my new journal.
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